I don't really fear death to be totally honest. I believe that as everything began it must end and whether that be tragic or just plain and simple it must happen, it is a sad and emotional process but I believe it is not something to fear. There's actually a beautiful quote that goes something...
_Whiteout is taken :c. (You can check if names are taken by running em through NameMC)
My suggestion if you're set on something along the lines of whiteout is xXWhiteOutXx or _xWhiteout, or something similar. It seems like a fairly popular name so finding an alteration of it may be quite difficult.
I agree with the statements made by Ginger and Texans, in my experience bots can get really out of hand especially in the serious cases of them spamming personal information. The inability to talk when respawning is a bit annoying but as stated above you'll just have to bear with it, it's really...