Hey, Camron. (First off, you may not know who I am as much. My name's Speed, or Jordan, and I'm a former Moderator of ManaCube. It's nice to properly talk to you finally. c: ) I understand how you feel. Whenever it comes to stress, I normally see it be from school. School can be rough, yes, especially when it comes to friends. Friends help make who we are, no matter how close they are. I am deeply sorry that you lost two of your friends, and I understand that your friends mean a lot to you. Now, I'm not sure how you lost them, but I do respect your decision to not discuss about that part. I used to feel the same way as you before, so I can relate easier. (Ironically, also the same time as you.) I've kinda drifted off from my friends; while I'm still friends with them, I'm not as close. I'm fine with this, though, because I just focus on my grades and work in class. I believe that you'll be alright as well. <3
From me to you, I suggest you work on your grades and school-work more often, so you can get it done easier and it relieves stress from the rest of your day, giving you more free time for stuff. In my opinion, I do agree with you when you say school isn't fun. But I do understand why it isn't, because it isn't meant to be. It's a learning place. Sure, we can have fun moments in class, like games and jokes from the teacher (and that's why my math teacher is the best xD), but it's still meant to be serious to get your work done and learn so you can have a better future. Now, as a kind suggestion, maybe try devoting that free time evenly between hanging out with the friends you still have left, whether it be during school or outside of school, and playing on ManaCube. I know this server means a lot to you. It means a lot to me as well, along with my girlfriend and school. c;
Apologies for writing a lot c': but I just felt like getting my thoughts out there, to see if I can be some sort of help to you. Stay strong, man. Remember to work hard. You still got most of your whole life ahead of you. As long as you keep your head held high and keep pushing forward, while also thinking positive, you'll get used to it and you can have a great future. Again, I'm deeply sorry about your recent stress. I wish you the best of luck for the future. (I also hear that you wish to become staff here, and from what I've seen, you seem like you'd make a great one. Best of luck with that as well. ;) ) If you wish to talk to me, for some more support and advice, or even just to talk to get to know each other more, you are always free to start a conversation with me on the Forums or message me on Discord (Speediare#4724). I am also mainly active on Survival and Skyblock in-game, so you're free to stop on by and say hello. :)
Anyways, I'll see you around. c: Take care! <3
-Speed