Hello there.
It is extremely unfortunate that you are feeling like this is your only option.
Suicide is not the way to fix the issues you are going through right now. The most important thing for you to do is to seek help where professionals can actually guide you towards a better future. Though I don't know you, I do know that you deserve to be happy. You really do deserve to have the best life you can possibly imagine, but that means you should stick around for it :)
I'm not too sure where you are from, so here is a list of places you can contact depending on what country you live in -
List of suicide crisis lines - Wikipedia
It is important to talk to people who spend their days helping others who feel the way you do, so you can get the best help possible.
I hope you have a lovely day/night,
Pesto.
I will be locking this thread to avoid unnecessary comments.