it's so weird to think that when i started playing mana i was a kid and didnt have any issues mentally or physically and fast forward to now i'm so different , its kinda upsetting like why couldnt i have just stayed as that kid forever? on a plus side im on some new meds which will hopefully help the mental health side of me but there really isnt a cure for BPD or CPTSD so medication can only do so much :(