Well I know you on the discord, you can get a little rude, and I hope you can fix yourself a little.
I've seen you in game, you aren't that rude however in game if I do see you, sometimes it takes time to be nice, It took me a while after a few talks with some of the staff. The one who I would go for advice from is the admin
@ChocBar. She has helped me and a lot of others hopefully get through times we got ourselves into. I've gotten a lot of advice from her person in general, and she has helped me become a better, I hope she can help you aswell.