You weren't afraid of me ever, you just wanted to use me as your shield. Your in denial of the fact that you knew you used me as a tool. Though you may have acted as a friend you knew your purpose, you knew your role and played along with it, like a puppeteer. I was never abrasive, I was never rude, or distant, and even if I did become distant, that should not result into saying that I abuse or act rude to people without any proof. You were afraid that I would boot you off because you were connected to the community I built and that you took in as your own, you were afraid I would remove you due to the fact that you had no experience. You aren't afraid of who I am, but afraid of the truth.
(yes I know, very deep stuff)