You're right, there is a huge lack of forgiveness from people on Mana, staff and players alike, and how something you did so long ago can still be the reason someone treats you like crap and bring it up all the time like you did it yesterday. People change. People hate themself for the way they acted and wish they could take it back but they can't. But how can a person move on and feel able to forgive themself for what they did if the staff and players never let them forget they did it or forgive them. Like me for example I was muted a year ago for something so stupid, that I don't think deserved a perm mute but that's besides the point. Still to this day people being it up 24 7 and are hateful and it was a year ago! And no matter how much you try to show you've changed now and you hate that you were that way, no forgiveness is given. Its horrible and the community on mana in general needs to really look at themselves and start forgiving people for the small things they did when they messed up. We already feel enough regret and shame for ourselves without others keep reminding us of it all the time.
Emmy, I don’t know what the circumstances are for you, but for what it’s worth you do seem like a nice person. I guess I should give some context, yes I completely agree with you… though rap isn’t the only person who feels this way about me and they aren’t totally in the wrong. I know for a a fact that many of the mods here don’t think I deserve another chance. For those of you who don’t know, I’m actually perm muted, and have been at least three or four times in total. Right now I’m sitting at a total of 17 mutes. Manacube doesn’t track warns on the ban page, but if they did it would probably be at least a page long. I’ve been perm banned on the discord at least two times now, once for advertising, and a Second time for posting hate speech screenshots in the help channels targeting myself. I’m also perm muted on the discord, I can/t remember why just remember there being an argument about furries.
I’m telling you all this not because I am proud of what I have done. I am doing this because I feel like I should be open and honest with my past on Manacube. When certain players look at me, they think the way staff are treating me isn’t fair. But let me ask you something, is life ever fair? Do you even know what I did to this community?
I used to be friends with rap- believe it or not we used to talk a lot. Actually, I used to be friends with many of the staff but over the past several months I feel that I’ve lost my connection to the staff team. But yes, even though what happened in the past is in the past, I still am judged for it. I’ve taken several breaks from Manacube, and hopped from different game modes trying to find a place where I felt like I actually belonged.
For years I had been a prison main, but many of my friends who I were close to didn’t play much anymore or we’d grown distant. Luckily, I eventually met pyro, and he offered me a home in Pandaria. Now I am much happier and I am a proud survival main. No, the community is far from perfect, but I feel like I can be myself- at least within Pandaria.
It’s been a really long journey, and despite all my countless punishments I’ve never given up hope on being unbanned and unmuted one day. You can tell me I’m being naive, but I don’t want to give up especially when I feel like I’ve found the place I belong. To any other players who may be permanently banned/muted- I understand what it feels like to have your appeals rejected countless times… but remember, there are people who do care about you, you just have to find them. Anyways, I’m gonna stop ranting about punishments because this isn’t what this thread is for :)
